Natalie Thinks

So after 40 years of ‘religiously’ attending church every Sunday, I find myself re-thinking how I’m going to do this church thing.     The last 10 years have made me re-envision church over and over again. Now I’m wondering whether to give up on it altogether. When we found ourselves living in a rural area, a few of us began to meet  as a small fellowship, first in our house and then in a school hall, at 4pm on a Sunday afternoon.  It was relaxed; it had that ‘ come as you are’ end of the weekend feel about it.  Then we caved to pressure and desires for growth in numbers and changed to a traditional morning meeting.  It was good, but it had that, ‘ have to get up early and get ready and nag the kids ’ kind of feeling. And then I after a total of 6 years I came down with an attack of spiritual fatigue.  The people were there, some were doing stuff, but mainly it was I who had to produce the goods week after week and whether it was a failure on my part to develop leaders, or to